Update on Courage

I want to thank each of you for the support you have given me. It really does make a difference to know your loved (I really did know that).

I know that the battle for courage is an on going one, it can come in such different places. For instance we have been battling the flu, and even in such a organic way there is a struggle for courage. Kirk went back to work after 3 days and I am hoping it will pass me by.

I can tell you the idea I had and was rather excited about, I have decided to abandon. I am basically a lazy person, and am being realistic when I say the idea of the work changed my mind. I will just stick with what I have going on and try to do a better job in those areas, that will be enough. Does it take courage to abandon something? I think maybe it does. I know it takes courage to say, no, when people want you to say, yes.

I know I do alot of things around here, and friends have said they don't know where I get my energy (I say that to others, too, because I don't think I have much), but really I only do the things I want when I want to (just look at my house right now, yikes, what a mess). It is going to take courage to get things organized again, some of these spaces are getting really scary, I will need to tie a rope around my waist and tie the end to a strong, heavy object so I can pull myself out from under if necessary. giggle.

I can say that I think I am finally gaining back my strength, both physically and mentally, and am getting some excitement going on beginning work on the studio again. We will be taking another trip to Billing sometime this month to buy the flooring and a door. Last trip I bought the light for the bathroom up there. Better get a picture so I can show you all.

Thank you again for your support, it has made all the difference.

God Bless.

Struggling with Courage.

I am awake at 1am because I am wrestling with courage. Why am I wrestling with courage?

I have this idea, and it will take work and discouragement is setting in. It doesn't take alot for discouragement to get a foot hold and tear apart something.

I think of what God says about thinking on whatever is good. Courage is good, right?
Discouragement is the opposite of good, therefor evil, of Satan. Discouragement is like a cancer, it starts as a nagging little thing and grows into the death of an idea. I know that Satan does not want us to succeed, (well unless we are working for him) he likes to destroy us, he'd like us to just lay down and do nothing, to be a bump on a log, making no difference in this world, especially not a difference for God, let along doing something good for our fellow humans.

I struggle alot with discouragement, I want to lose weight and have the goal in mind when discouragement comes along and says.......why should you give up this or that, here have some M&Ms. Or I want to begin exercising and discouragement says....oh it is to muddy out to go for a walk, exercise is boring, why don't you sit down here at the computer (oh Adah) or read a book.

I know there are alot of things we have accomplished here that have taken pure courage, but it has not been my courage. I am a wimp when it comes to courage, I am easily swayed from things by the simplest remarks or thoughts. I would not, nor could I have done the things we have done here alone, I gain courage from my husband, but on the same note he can discourage me with a simple negative remark.

I need to gain courage to act on my ideas, despite what others may think, but how? I suppose courage needs exercise. I know I have courage, just like the cowardly lion had courage all along in the Wizard of OZ. It comes by baby steps, I guess.

How do I get discouragement to leave me alone, how do I overcome it? It comes in so many forms, such as the feeling of being overwhelmed, I get that one alot. Depression, too. It is like discouragement likes to stick out his foot and trip you up at every turn and then runs away laughing, as you fall on you face. It is usually a lie.....you can't do that, your not good enough, your not smart enough, your not good looking enough, your just going to fail and on and on it goes.

I remember how long it took me to get up the courage to make my first batch of soap, boy was I scared I would fail, it must have taken 6 months. I didn't fail and then I was off an running, but somehow courage requires new lessons with each new venture. Hummmmm.

That is it, isn't it?
Discouragements goal is to get you to fail before you even try. WOW.
What is the worst that can happen if one fails, of course depending on what it is.........at least in this case I won't die, I may have to pick myself up and dust myself off..............

Do you struggle with this?
Maybe I can sleep now, since I have talked about it with you all, thanks for listening.
Night.

Update on Arnie & Blessings

I have to tell you all what a blessing I have received. I put out a call to 2 of my quilt groups (online) for help with making a comfort quilt for Arnie. Do you know that these wonderful ladies have supplied me with a completed top, two complete kids quilts and blocks so now the whole family is going to be comforted. I am just so touched by the generosity of you all.

Now to give an update. Arnie will be going into surgery on the 16th, your continued prayer support is so much appreciated.

Here is a note from my DDIL, Michele......she is heading up fund raising for Arnie and Cheri.



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I have set up a paypal account to receive donations. All the banks I called require giving out the account number to
people to make donations and they have to have an account to do it over the internet, Really dumb if you ask me.
But after looking into several other places I have set up a paypal account to accept them. The fees are small.
If anyone would like to make a donation they can at www.paypal.com and send the payment to e-mail address
krahfamily@yahoo.com
Thank you all!!! Michele
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If you feel lead to give a donation, here is the info and I thank you in advance from the bottom of my heart. The insurance will only pay a portion of what Arnie will need, they are contacting the cancer society also. God Bless you all for what your doing to help.

Hugs
Gail

My Dad

Robert Alan McHenry
December 2, 1926 - December 11, 2007



















This post is in honor of my Dad, who passed away last night at 6:30 pm in Nevada.

Dad was born in Omaha Nebraska, served in the Navy, and worked in the aerospace industry on our big airplanes. Mom and Dad moved to Silversprings Nevada to spend their retirement years and enjoyed 59 years together.
He is survived by my Mom, Mildred, myself, Terry (my brother) and Nancy (my sister) 6 grandchildren, and 6 great grandchildren.

We will miss you Daddy.

Happy Thanksgiving

Oh my goodness, I did not realize
how long it has been since I have
updated this blog.

Alot has been happening.

I wanted to share some
of the fall color this year.
This tree is across the street.


I hope everyone had a good
Thanksgiving.





My Dad is on his last days of life and I just returned from a trip to Nevada to visit with him. He is doing ok for now and has been moved to a better nursing home. It was a good visit with him.

I arrived home from the trip just hours before the snow began. Winter has arrived and the gardening season has come to a close with the 10 degree nights. BUT........spring is teasing with the arrival of 2008 seed catalogs. We were able to enjoy lettuce and tomatoes up until 2 nights ago.

We have begun a little Christmas decorating by putting up the icicle lights, though Kirk was wondering why since we have real icicles, LOL.

Kirk did get to get the cement slab put down in front of the shop, what a difference it makes. We are slowly but surly making improvements around the place....it just takes time and money. Here are a couple of pictures of that.






























Next I want to add a roof to the trailer and make it look like a shed instead of a trailer. Grin.

Until later, Gods Blessing to all

Rusty...Aug 1, 2006 - Aug 30, 2007

We lost our little buddy, Rusty last night, a great hole has been created. I wanted to pay tribute
to him with a few picture of our little friend.














Rusty was part Jack Russel and Red Healer. Full of antics, full of love, he was always into whatever we were doing. Unfortunately he also like to chase cars, try as we may we could not get him to stop (he is a cattle dog), and he chased one to many.















I am not sure what Lady thinks, they were always together, she raised him.















His first day with us,
















Rusty we love you and miss you so much. Thank you for the love you gave to us.